Cheer Up

Haix, I dunno what is happening to you and me though, but i guess, now you and him broken up, but i have this feeling you two will be together again, because u so rash and blinded. haix. den i'll have to be ignored, and everything goes back to 1month before.

I also dunno
I love you alot,
but being with you doesn't have any stability at all.
during the relationships u have many crushes,
but i thought it will pull through.
but one by one it goes on even deeper,
now i'm out of the picture already.
TOTALLY out.
how sad can i be?
i dunno whether i still want a chance anot,
i feel so weak, so useless, you made me felt that.
i just know i still love you, i want to care bout you.

I Hope, my hatred for you goes on fading. Its so xinku.
to hate and love at the same time.
i have never hate someone you know.
and never love someone that much too.
those two mixes, its like dead end.
I want to care for you.
I want to be there for you.
But even know if i want,
i'll be scolded, by everyone around me.
They saw me being destroyed. but yet, i'm going on wanting to be with you.
Lames, i'm so fail.
even i have to tell u how i feel through this blog.
FAIL. cause u won't give me a chance to tell you. We dun even have a good talk after we broke up.
just some lies lame excuses den we broke up.
yes. u are not ready for relationship.
thats true.
but. i don't mind!
I already love u so much, when i realise u are not ready. i just hope that u will be ready soon. den. i lost you. perhaps its a great gamble to wait for u.
but i had the confidence.

now,
shattered.
i still have to care for you.
cause
I LOVE YOU!
u don't even border to reply me.
U know how i feel

amplify how u feel by 100000000 x billion million times den thats how i feel.
or maybe few more zeros.
lol.