<3

memories.

2011-08-12T02:27:00.002+08:00

i'm back. and you're with another guy now.

But this time i asked u to go for it..
sometimes i feel super unlucky.
The way you treasure him,
u didn't treasure me as much.

I had minimal time with you.
when i know what u did for him
My heart really hurts.
Not as much, but still hurts.

when, i go out with you,
I STILl have the urge to put my hand over your shoulder,
give u a hug.
)'=

I got used to being number 1 in your heart.
i need to adapt. Quick.

SAD...

2010-03-23T17:54:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I feel i got many easy ways out. Yet my heart softens and goes back for you. Den you will disappoint me. even till the last chance, you are still disappointing me. I feel so sad. I'm now the one who decided to go back to you because i still love you, Yet to you, its like i don't understand you.

Darling,
Its very hard for me to face the same fear that i have experienced 3mths ago only.

I know what you want, but its something ridiculous.
If u can't focus with me around, I'll be a hindrance to you for life.
O levels is just a small thing, how bout A levels, University, Work?
I'm Not The Main Factor of your RESULTS.
I'm Not The Main usage of your TIME
U can't study when in a relationship? u got 12 in level during sec 2, when i was studying for Os.
U got 55 for sec 3, when u started ignoring me and watching tv.
So its Me again?

Why can't I wish that you can cherish me at least aBIT more.........................
Why Can't I be more important than some of the non-living things In Your Life.
WHy Does IT have to wait till the last last moment, den you'll say you love me.

DUN BLAME ME for your results anymore.
NOT ME!

I'm the one going to find you. My Time, Not your time.i don't mind...(:

I dunno what to do... I dunno what to do....

TEACH me how to believe in you??

Feb 2010

2010-02-07T19:09:00.003+08:00

haix, few more days, and its 4 months since we break up.
hmm.
emo days coming...
everything feels like yesterday, the day we broke up, de day u shout me to get lost
every pain feels like yesterday too. it hurts.

:D

2010-01-31T04:05:00.001+08:00

happy again.
Happy with my new found life.
HAPpy that everything is okay.
I hope, we can keep this blog still. haha. as long as possible :D

LIfe goes on!

2010-01-25T02:05:00.000+08:00

Life goes on.

Sorry Demi

2010-01-15T00:06:00.002+08:00

Sorry demi!
i am a impatient guy.
Haha.
Everytime so impatient,
love you too much...

demi.
thanks for appreciating my love.
i really very happy le.
theres no such thing as unfair.
love
is never fair
thanks for trying,
I'm very happy.
satisfied.
now.
i want, to woo you back.
want you to be my darling again.
I want to call you darling.
DARLING.
it takes time.
I'll try my best.
i'll not screw anything already.

T.T

Guess thats life

2010-01-14T00:29:00.002+08:00

I guess thats life. i'm in this mood for 3mths, and it will carry on.
i'll wait for you.
i'll love you.
thats all

i dunno how long i can wait
but i'm living 1 day by 1 day.
1 single hr by 1 single hr.
waiting for the day

you call me laogong.
the day my heart can finally smile,
is when u let me love again.

my heart is dead.
only you can save me
i only want you to save me.

yeah.
thats life.
I need you.

Three Months!

2010-01-14T00:23:00.002+08:00

Its been 3 mths since we broke up, demi.
short or long?
things happened between us.
but my love, haven even fade,
when i see you.
i just wanna love you.
haix.
i just hope you could let me love you.
and you could love me back
aww.
don't be stress over ur studies,
let me help you. pls.
i'll feel better.
GOOD LUCK!

Life without my darling-day 89.

2010-01-11T20:24:00.002+08:00

HAHA wad a nice title.

Hais.
these few months, really damn shag.
no time to breathe.
a battle of my emotions almost everyday,
how i wish,
i could have a break,
the only way to have a break, is when you tell me you still love me
or u call me laogong again. :D
haix.

My IQ so high for what?
My EQ is so bloody low. pathetic. lol
My EQ can be compared to a young boy.
LOL.
thats how pathetic.
Hmm
but too much EQ also not good wad.
become very cunning, den everything blahblahblah
maybe should be happy my EQ is low, but must becareful in everything i do.
Hmm.
For you, nothing is impossible.
Love ya.

CryCryCry

2010-01-10T16:13:00.002+08:00

Why am i crying again.. why .. i can't control.
This stupid memories...

10/1/10.

2010-01-10T15:59:00.002+08:00

87days since we broke up.
Memories stays deep
Love stays deep.

I've been trying hard not to cry.
But, yesterday, i cried when i dreamt of you. leaving me.
Hurts my heart.
recently so many emo songs come to my head.
I wish, i can sing to you, and touch you.

I still love you.
from the way i cry even when i sleep.

yesterday i went to meet up with hazmei. and after passing ur block,
I nearly cried.
tears were in my eyes.
The place we used hug,
The place we used to cuddle,
The place we used to kiss,
The place where i waited for you.
The place where i loved to go.
The place where u asked me to leave.
The place where u walk away from me
The place where u asked me to go away
The place where u said u don't wanna see me.

Memories.
Memories.
my throat hurts.
From everyday. Singing the songs i wanna sing to you.
its the 9th day since i started coughing.
And i'm still singing everyday.
How I wanna be with you.

一輩子兩個人在一起
你說要加個或許
不是你不喜歡甜言和蜜語
只是你比較實際

兩個人一輩子不分離
你問我好在哪裡
不是你不期待永恆的戀曲
你說最美的愛情叫做回應

為何連分手都不跟我爭吵
撂下一句話就想逃跑
讓我愛難平情難滅夢難了
心難過你卻放手一了百了

離開我你說是為了我好
可知道這句話傷人不少
就算忘不了沒有大不了
反正一切都不再重要

我的心既然你全都不了
何必再繼續彼此困擾
斬斷糾纏的愛
從今就一了百了

Do you care at all?

2010-01-07T22:35:00.002+08:00

What a sad song..

i wanna cry again..
i cannot.

Cheer Up

2010-01-03T17:42:00.002+08:00

Haix, I dunno what is happening to you and me though, but i guess, now you and him broken up, but i have this feeling you two will be together again, because u so rash and blinded. haix. den i'll have to be ignored, and everything goes back to 1month before.

I also dunno
I love you alot,
but being with you doesn't have any stability at all.
during the relationships u have many crushes,
but i thought it will pull through.
but one by one it goes on even deeper,
now i'm out of the picture already.
TOTALLY out.
how sad can i be?
i dunno whether i still want a chance anot,
i feel so weak, so useless, you made me felt that.
i just know i still love you, i want to care bout you.

I Hope, my hatred for you goes on fading. Its so xinku.
to hate and love at the same time.
i have never hate someone you know.
and never love someone that much too.
those two mixes, its like dead end.
I want to care for you.
I want to be there for you.
But even know if i want,
i'll be scolded, by everyone around me.
They saw me being destroyed. but yet, i'm going on wanting to be with you.
Lames, i'm so fail.
even i have to tell u how i feel through this blog.
FAIL. cause u won't give me a chance to tell you. We dun even have a good talk after we broke up.
just some lies lame excuses den we broke up.
yes. u are not ready for relationship.
thats true.
but. i don't mind!
I already love u so much, when i realise u are not ready. i just hope that u will be ready soon. den. i lost you. perhaps its a great gamble to wait for u.
but i had the confidence.

now,
shattered.
i still have to care for you.
cause
I LOVE YOU!
u don't even border to reply me.
U know how i feel

amplify how u feel by 100000000 x billion million times den thats how i feel.
or maybe few more zeros.
lol.

another vent of anger

2009-12-30T14:51:00.001+08:00

Stay Strong

2009-12-28T15:16:00.003+08:00

No more crying, i will try my best.
Stay strong,
I'm going to stay strong,

today is this song. i love this song. haha
I'll be waiting for u darling.
:D
This blog never dies

Sorry

2009-12-23T19:44:00.003+08:00

Im sorry,
I hurted u again
I irritated u again.
I wanted to help you.
now u are crying for him, i am crying for you,
No matter what u are,
I will still want you
you are the apple of my eye darling.
haix.
Open your eyes and see who loves u most.
your mum, me.

i'm so helpless to you.
yet i love you so much
then u dun love me at all.
but, i'll be there.
when u need me,
now u don't but i need. how can i do?

Hoping

2009-12-21T23:42:00.002+08:00

I'm not giving up. Even if i get hurt everyday, i'm willing to find u to get myself hurt.

I LOVE YOU.
CAN'T U FEEL IT ANYMORE.
OUCH.
THE PAIN IN MY HEART
MAKES ME TYPE IN CAPS AGAIN.

but, love always perseveres

one day, if you need my love, i'll be there.

OUCH

2009-12-21T14:32:00.002+08:00

haha. now making cookie for darling. christmas, first time, i think i'm not going to make it nice le. so sad. nvm. but just now burnt my hand. damn pain. the whole skin become bubble. z.
dunno whether she will know,
whether she will not get unhappy if i didn't make the cookie well.
my finger already burnt.
why am i doing so much for you.
because i cant forget you. =C.
I want you to be with me

Love

2009-12-19T19:11:00.002+08:00

I learn guitar, because i know you like guitar
I learn math, because i want to help you
I learn piano, so that i can amaze you
I learn singing, because I want to touch you.
I learn cooking, So i can cook for you, u big eater. haha.
I save money, so i can give u a better life
I study hard, so i can get a better job

Your gone, Now what??
I learn guitar, to injure my fingers?
I learn math, to make my brain more big?
I learn piano, to injure my nails?
I learn singing, To HAO LIAN?
I learn cooking, to burn my hand?
I save money, to make ppl think i'm stingy?
I study hard, to make ppl think i'm smart?

YA SURE.

Love.

2009-12-10T05:08:00.002+08:00

This Blog will stay alive...

we broke up on 14 Oct 2009.

I love u still
I STILL LOVE YOU. ALOT.
I DUNNO WHY. I HAVE THE FEELING I CANT FORGET YOU.
DARLING....
I AM NOT ALLOWED TO CALL U DARLING.
ITS BEEN... 2 MTHS, SINCE U CALLED ME LAOGONG.
DARLING...

I DUNNO WHETHER U STILL WILL COME THIS BLOG, OR POST.
I WANT TO TELL U. I LOVE YOU

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY
I'M SORRY I CAN'T PREPARE A GRAND PRESENT FOR YOU.
I CAN'T
MY HEART HURTS.
IN FACT I'M STILL CRYING. EVERY SINGLE BLOG POST.
I'M STILL STUCK IN THIS ROOM. I CAN'T GET OUT. I NEED YOU.

My Darling...

2009-11-11T08:20:00.000+08:00

My darling.
we have broken for 1month today,
aw....
i miss you lots..

=(
love is filled with my heart.
sadness is filled with my heart more..
i just want to say,
i don't want to lose you.
please give me this chance to love you back...

I LOVE YOU DEMI LUM MING JIE.=D

I lOVE YOU

2009-10-18T22:53:00.001+08:00

I love you. please don't leave me.

HAPPY 17TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY!

2009-08-26T23:36:00.002+08:00

=D haha, i never forget worh.. =D but i nvr prepare any present for u=(

This Month is The hardest month to pass. HAHA.

But no matter what we will last forever.=D

My exams are over, your exams are starting. so must jiayou orh!

i will pei u all the way like i always do. =P

so long since i blogged already, haha.

but i dunno what to type leh..

just know that i love you. haha

i will end here. LOL =D

12am liao =D

=D happy 15th month!

2009-06-28T20:43:00.002+08:00

haha, happy 15th month aniversary!

HOHO

so fast 15th month liao
all i want to say
is thanks darling for everything =D
everything we been through was FUN

I love the way you love me
I love the way you can tolerate me
I'm very lucky to have you, only you can joke and play with me, like kids
Also, To share my problems with you, =D and u will always encourage me.
Hear my talkative craps. haha
love me even i'm so ugly.
Give me warmth when u hug me
Make me fly when you kiss me.
Nobody can take your place.
NOBODY,
lol!
=D
So,
Be with me forever! =D

Love ya forever too,

your laogong=D

Happy 13th month!

2009-04-27T17:58:00.000+08:00

happy 13mth aniversary!!
hope we last forever. =D
lyl.

In love deeply...

2009-04-20T14:43:00.003+08:00

50 most romantic things to do with your boyfriend or girlfriend...

1. Watch the sunset together
2. Whisper to each other
3. Cook for each other (making things count to right? haha. =p)
4. Walk in the rain
5. Hold hands
6. Buy gifts for each other
7. Roses
8. Find out their favorite cologne/perfume and wear it every time you're together (nah!)
9. Go for a long walk down the beach at midnight
10. Write poetry for each other (only you did it. i enjoyed it. =D)
11. Hugs are the universal medicine
12. Say I love you, only when you mean it and make sure they know you mean it
13. Give random gifts of flowers/candy/poetry etc
14. Tell her that she's the only girl you ever want. Don't lie! (idk if you are lying. haha. jkjk.)
15. Spend every second possible together
16. Look into each other's eyes
17. Very lightly push up her chin, look into her eyes, tell her you love her, and kiss her lightly
18. When in public, only flirt with each other
19. Put love notes in their pockets when they aren't looking
20. Buy her a ring
21. Sing to each other
22. Always hold her around her hips/sides
23. Take her to dinner and do the dinner for two deal
24. Spaghetti? (Ever see Lady and the Tramp?)
25. Hold her hand, stare into her eyes, kiss her hand and then put it over your heart
26. Dance together
27. I love the way your girl looks right after she's fallen asleep with her head in my lap (not on your lap ba)
28. Do cute things like write I love you in a note so that they have to look in a mirror to read it
29. Make excuses to call them every 5 minutes
30. Even if you are really busy doing something, go out of your way to call and say I love you
31. Call from your vacation spot to tell them you were thinking about them
32. Remember your dreams and tell her about them
34. Tell each other your most sacred secrets/fears (don't know if got tell all yet anot... haha. =p)
35. Be Prince Charming to her parents
36. Brush her hair out of her face for her
37. Hang out with his/her friends
38. Go to church/pray/worship together (not really possible...)
39. Take her to see a romantic movie and remember the parts she liked
40. Learn from each other and don't make the same mistake twice (what does this mean??)
41. Describe the joy you feel just to be with him/her
42. Make sacrifices for each other
43. Really love each other, or don't stay together
44. Let there never be a second during any given day that you aren't thinking about them, and make sure they know it
45. Love yourself before you love anyone else (don't know... haha)
46. Learn to say sweet things in foreign languages
47. Dedicate songs to them on the radio
48. Fall asleep on the phone with each other (almost before)
49. Stand up for them when someone talks trash
50. Never forget the kiss goodnight and always remember to say, 'Sweet dreams.'

hmm... you should know what the ones highlighted in blue means. hahax. =p
i copy from email de. haha. nothing to post ma. =p
laogong must workhard le kays? i also must work super duper hard!!!
16 more days to my mye... i scared... nvm.
love ya! forever! =)

loving you always, darling =)

2009-04-06T19:57:00.002+08:00

YAY, 1 year has passed.
still remember 1year ago.
Wanting to say something to u

i dunno, sometimes i'll feel left out without ur presence,until i'll have to find a place to hide
everytime i'll try to catch ur attention,
hope u dun get irritated.=D
cause thats just because i love alot=D

wanna say a big sorry and thank you=D
blame hormones, not me=D
I Still remember how stupid i was when we first started,
hahax
Now still stupid. LOL
but nvm=D i know you love me,
and i'll love you forever, its a promise=D

Whenever u said sorry,
my heart melts.
whenever i see ur name when i receive a message. i'll smile.
Dun feel that your bad
cause once u loved me, ur perfect.

i know i'm not a good boyfriend
i know i'm ugly,
but thanks for loving me=D
and making me deserving it.

my school's gonna start soon,
and, i'll miss you.
dun worry, i'll be very loyal,=D
cause my heart only have you.
100% you.
Darling i love you!

Random post

2009-02-24T22:52:00.003+08:00

Lol. hahax 3 more days. =)
haha happy belated belated valentine's everyone. LOL
belated x 100
Just wanna show a very funny video.
HAHA
touch my body= tuts my barreh.
See le darling will understand wad i say that time. LOL
Hope can distress u also la =)

AND! dun sorry me =). hahax. cause i'm not angry at all. LOL.
LOve ya! =)
just tell u i'll be there and with everlasting patience
=)

feeling bad...

2009-02-20T20:48:00.002+08:00

laogong,
i super duper sorry. i noe this week have been up and down. bcoz of me 'swinging' (lol)
juz wanna tell you no matter what happen, i will still be with you unless you noe... hahax. =p
even if i have only a little love left for you, i noe you will not blame me but urself. dun do that kays!?

loving you for now. =)
dun xiang tai duo!!!

2009-02-04T12:06:00.000+08:00

Lets101 Quizzes - blog quizzes

lol. I just found this cool, so decided to post this, This is the percentage of zodiacs that is compatible with me! lol. 121%. erm. =P

JUST WORKED FINISH ON MONDAY AND TUESDAY! DEAD TIRED. LOL

HAPPY 10TH Month! Happy new year@

2009-01-27T16:58:00.003+08:00

Lol. Happy 10mth darling! haha. and chinese new year.
:D wish u stay pretty, and good health!
AND GOOD RESULTS.
haha. lols
So fast 10month, everyone month moves fast
But 10months, where got long? even ten years also not long lo =P haha.
Love Ya!
Your LaoGong=P

=)

2009-01-04T01:12:00.002+08:00

Happy belated new year, and happy 9th months!HOPE U LIKE UR PRESENT. But its with me! hahax.
i see the blog dying
So i decided to add some crap

Just came back from work,quite late,(dun worry =) i sleep straight away after this=))
haha
actually, school reopens is also not a good thing for me, although i'm not going to school. because not going to school is the thing that is not good for me. LOL. Can't see DARLING!!!.
but nvm la, still can go in and find u, hope u dun get irritated by me. HAHA.

O level results coming, stress. this last few days will be abit sian for me. nvm la. cause i Promised someone not to "grow old faster" already. Got any problems, tell me okay? haha

So fast 2009, 2008 is like a dream to me, after knowing you.=). and studying for O levels.
LOL
well, i going to sleep le. dead tired
haha, managed to work well
because i work for a reason=P.

Loving Darling alwayss,
831.

Dreams

2008-12-08T23:12:00.001+08:00

Ha, Found this video, Quite Great Inspiration.
LOL
:D

Dreams, Can Really Come True. :P
Loving Her.:D

random...

2008-11-27T07:34:00.002+08:00

Happy 8 month anniversary laogong!!!
too bad u in camp. haha. =p nvm. =)
still have a very long way to go ma.
so still must wait. lol.

being loved =)

=) I L O V E H E R =)

2008-11-25T03:01:00.000+08:00

10 BiG reasons why i love you.

1. Your smile
When you smile at me, I can't help but smile back.
It makes anything that's wrong in my world...
...Just melt away. Your smile fixes everything.

2. Your eyes
They're so warm and honest.
I feel like I can trust you with anything, just from the
Way you look at me. They're full of personality;
And by looking at you, i'll never get bored.
I feel as if I could stare into them for hours.

3. The way you touch me
I love how you're always touching me, and cuddling
With me. I'm just like you in a sense that touch is a
Huge aspect of a relationship.
And is a static that makes me wanna fly.

4. Your sense of humor
You're so Sweet and Cute.
Even When I'm At my worst of moods, U will never fail,
--To make me smile.=)

5. You listen to me
Nothing I say sounds stupid to you,
And you're always interested in whatever it is
I have to say.
Even when we're arguing, or when I'm upset and crying,
You listen.
Cherishing every moment, every second

6. The way you make me feel
Whenever I'm with you, I feel safe and secure.
I finally feel that I belong somwhere,
And that somewhere is with you.
--You're my home. My Love.

7. The Way you forgive me
When i did something wrong,
U forgave me.
When Things go wrong, U cheered me up.
Theres nothing i can be proud of, in my life, except you.
--nothing.

8 You're so adorably cute
All the faces you make, the way you sing && Talk
To the phone, to Me.
It's the way you do the things you do that make me fall in love with you.831!

9. I love your everything
You are everything I've ever wanted.
Everything I'll ever need
Everywhere I want to be
** everything to me
You know me by heart.

10. I love who I am when I'm with you
You know all my strenths; my weaknesses.
You kiss my imperfections away.
I can be myself around you
and you still love me.
I love how caring u treat me, and look
Me in my eyes.
Hold me tight
Never----Let----Go----FOREVER.

<3 <3 <3 <3
I know im not perfect, I know i cry for everything, I know I can make something out of nothing, but its all because I never wnt to lose you <3 :)
Love Ya Darling!